Hello myself,  haha cos im the only person reads this blog.  So lets rants!  Firstly from my last blog i told you guys that i was gonna get engaged with matthew. Yup, i did.  So after getting engaged,  matthew went to get convert.  I was proud for him ofcos.  Alot of things happen to his family which i dont want to say it here cos seriously too many.  Haha!  After years getting engaged,  we got married at ROMM as we are saving money for the wedding ceremony . Its crazy la we spend like 16k total just for a day event. After month getting married things happen to us.  Remember i use to blog saying he cheated on me.  Ya he did it again, i have no idea what i should do this time but just to act normal when deep down i know I m crying badly and still feeling hurt.  I decided to blog today is to share my feeling.  So today all i do is sleep n watch shows on my phone but now when i was looking at picture on the wall the picture that we took on the nikah day.  I could see how happy we are, how happy i am with you bcos i thought you have stop all this shits but you did not.  This things happen when matthew resign from his work.  He went to ask a lady for her number who is engaged.  Hais.  Sometime i just wish i have a true friend where i could just share my feelings and just be there with me when i need them but none of my friends were actually there for me.


All i want to say that if you found someone that willing to do something beyond the limit you should treasure that person and keep them,  dont wait until you lose them then you come running back and begging that person to stay .

And to be in a relationship that its healthy you should always have commucation, love,  trust and dont not lie/cheat with your partner . Give them the attention that they deserve.

Okey done with that,  so life insyallah will be better.  Court case is done, slowly paying the laywer.  Change job to Apm, from fulltimer to parttimer. Got a house for us. Insyallah will have a baby for us.  And get rid all the stupid people in my life.  All i have now is just my family.


Thats all for now, i m gonna sleep now. Too sleepy typing.  Love you all,  wait love myself.