Tuesday, May 29, 2012 ♥
♥ 11:58 PM
Dear faris haiqal ,
this might be the last blog i m gonna write about us . i m gonna let go off this feelings that i had since the first day we know eachother till now . i m gonna let you be with her and happy like how you are . i m gonna share you all about us here . oh well , do you remember how we get to know eachother ? i still do , i was chatting at msn then saw your online and i tot that was my friend but i get to know it was you . but we keep chatting , from there we exchange number and we start cncting . slowly i had feels on you . the first met was sucks and enjoyable you were so happy . from there we cant stop ourself to meeting eachother so we meet everyday .and you did ask me to be your gf for 3 time but i rejected you . til the day i have confident that you can take good care of me . and acpt you on that crazy day which was your birthday . there were i start to give you more love and care .before your birthday i came down to jb to meet your parents and i was so scared and shy . mami treat us food but i never give finish , we both were hopping to stay longer and have more fun . when your open house i skip madrasah just to let my mom and family meet your family. from there they know eachother . i was so shy . 1 month came my family came to your house to talk about your uncle house which we want to rent then we went to jusco you bring your dad's car and we watch movie . you were so sweet , then you wanted to send me home but my head was hurting so you ask me to stay but you told mami i was having a bad stomach pain . that was funny . then came 2 month i move to jb just for you , just to make us easier to meet eachother and i brought prepaid card for you and me so we could cnct eachother .arnd 3 month your parent start hating me , your father say something and make me broke up with you but i really thank your brother marzuki to help us up. then the following month came . so when we reach six month i brought you your Favorite cartoon pillow which is eyo and one small eyo doll , after your work we meet at causeway point and had a surprise dinner at pizza hut . you told me you were speechless . and i laugh . i was so happy to look at your smile at that time . and behind all this sweet memories theres alot of fighting, crying and hurting . before 1 year something happen , your ex came in something happen on that night and our friend told me about what happen and i was so hurt and cant think so i ask a break up again . til i heard the real story from both of you . and a few weeks later we were back . and it was 1 year we just chill at vivo and took some photo with your new laptop . and the relationship keep on going .you went to enroll your bike and i was there seeing you pass and fail , being by your side and feeling so proud for you . ending of that year when you going to get your TP we broke up just bcos of one small shit thing . and we were off , you got your bike and you give me a surprise pick up at the library ,that was my first time ever ride on a bike i was sacred but you cool me down . then you found this girl i m not sure if u were happy at that time and i were there trying my very best to get you back .then there come our monthsry and i ask u to go out on a date with me , we did and he caught into an stupid accident , we were laughing but it was hurt too. and i remember you were on the way to school and i was having my break you call me saying you caught into an accident i was shock and went to yishun and pay that cab . that girl was there and you treat me like i wasnt there at all . i was crying in the heart seeing your leg and the way u treated me. blood keep out , i want to help but i just cant . one day that girl being a bitch to everyone so you broke up with her and finally i get you back . so we were together and i try not to do the same mistake but i still do but we are still happy .puasa came we went alot of night riding and outing . i really had fun . then there came your school trip you have to go indon i feel so sad , lonely with out you . i keep wall post and msg you but no reply , suddenly i receive a call from you i was so excited til i fall myself with my heels . i was laughing my ass out . so waited happily for your return , the day came it was our 2 years anny , i waited for you for hours standing right outside . once i saw your friend came out i keep finding you you were there and i came to you hugging you with tears of joy and not letting it go . i was so happy to meet you . then we go off to have a surprise dinner again and it was swensen . then we keep on going with our relationship with fighting , happy ,sad and hurt . then came 6 november we had a fight and that night you ask me for a break up , i did not want that bcos i just get you back til now we are single and i m still wishing us to be back but now you treat me as a "bestfriend" and you fall in love with ariee . and now i have to let you go from my heart . what i want to say is everything you had given me , all the best gift that you gave me is was a bless . i really thank allah for us to meet . your still my number one best boyfriend ever . even its hard to let you go i have too cos i just want to see you happy . i will still love you . i m gonna say goodbye 24092009 til 06112011 . its time to let a new guy to my life . i m sorry to replace you with someone else but i m not sure who would be . hais .
takecare haiqal , once you get your bike back please ride safety . aku akan tetap sayang kau walau macam mane move on aku . :( :(
ps : i m not letting u go but i m letting of my feelings . i just cant bare to hurt myself . ilybby.