Hey you guys,

Sorry i did not always blog like i always do but since i m really bored i shall blog a lil bit of what have happen for this few days. So one year has past and i was really happy that we make it up and know that we can work this relationship for more years but i m sadly to say that after what really happen to us make me feel like we cant have that more years together. What i m trying to say here that things happen btwn us, before that i wont lie i was really happy to be with him this one year.

Right after our one year we had plans as always that one day he had to lie and did things that he wont do it but he did until i caught him and he admit it. I was broke into pieces and i did ask him to leave but i took back my word bcos i could not do it. It was hard to leave someone that you loved and too attached so i act normal and cried for 3 days without stopping and think what did i do until he has to do all this to me? I question myself everynight. Am i useless? Am i not the great gf? Did i give him less?What is there missing? I loved him and care, did not do anything bad. I stop all bad things example like stealing, clubbing, drinking without him. All those things, so i told him i give him one last chance to prove me that you will never do this mistake again if not i will let him go. So i try to trust him back slowly. Then it came yesterday after a long days i never get to be with him alone and i got it, so i wish that things will go through fine. We had lunch then watch movie, shop a lil and get dinner, while we on our way to have dinner he was with his hp and i was feeling sad that why dont he talk to me instead when he knows his meeting his boys soon. And we had a argument cos i compare us with other couple where i was actually trying to say that why arent we not like ourself being so crazy and talk shit, but then he got mad and did not talk a shit so i felt fucked up and i dont know what else to do. We went to the toilet cos i wasnt feeling well so i went out and hold his hand to cheer him up but he push me and say that i could not join him and his boys. I was shock why must he push me and talk to me like that, i really want to cry but i hold. So told him we need to talk so we seat near the mrt and talk a lil bit but ended into a fight. I text melvin and ask him if they were going to club but then he say yes and ask me to talk to him if i dont want him to go so i told him that you dont need to go and just slack with me and meet them after that. He got even mad and want to leave i pull him back and talk things up and just had to let him go bcos i dont even want him to get mad at me. As normal i failed to save this relationship and i start crying. I did my very best to keep this relationship, i really love him. I really dont even know what i should do now. Why cant he just see how much this relationship mean to me? Why cant he stop and really change? How long must he keep hurting me?

Doesnt mean he was hurt by every relationship he had he have a chance to hurt  someone that really truly love him right? I fail in this relationship, i really do.. I really dont know what to do. I miss old him and us......

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