baby please dont go ♥.

Saturday, January 31, 2015 ♥

♥ 11:03 PM

I just cant stop loving you boy.

Hey Dear, currently at moms place celebrate rakin's birthday i just get bored here and just want to blog cos there too many thing in my mind to post it before i forget. So i just got back from phuket yesterday, wondering why am i at phuket? when i last blog was matt and his friend was there.

Ya, let me tell you some sad story. It was sunday and counting down for his return on monday. planning what to do and all but in the end around 7 plus he texted me with a sad emoji. I got worried and i knew something not right. I got to know he broke his left leg, it make my heart break soo hard. I dont know what to do but i just cried soooo hard. I told mom to get me a flight to there but we could not get it,so i contacted his father and he could not get one too. Matt told me that his father going the next day so i texted his dad and told his dad i m going on the first flight to there, Once i reached phuket i rushed myself to the hospital got into his room he wasnt there so i waited and there he is laying down in pain. I cried once i see him, its just so sad. I went to him and give him a hug and cry more. It just hurt me so badly, i seat there looking at him, took care of him till the boys come in and his father reached. I was so happy and shy to meet his dad but everything went well. So night time came, baby was in pain when he sleeping. I could not have a good sleep, he keep waking me up and crying in pain. I was heartbroken seeing him like that, I wanted to cry but i just cant i just have to cry in my sleep and heart. The next day, he feeling much better. I m always there for him by his side, cuddling him, kissing him,helping him, get scolded by him. I do all this because i love him soo much that i cant let him be alone. I guess your wondering about my work, told boss that i took urgent leave but he wasn't happy. He just dont understand what i feeling. fuck it laa! Okey back to phuket, Matt's dad and ian was so happy that matt have a such a sweet girlfriend and keep saying nice things toward me. Ofcos la i m shy, your partner parent say something nice about you sia. Haha. Okey it was the last day there i was sad cos i know once we in sg things will be different. Like now, oh well. Once we reach sgh Matt's mom is there she was so unhappy and never want to look at me in the face. I understand you dont like me but hey i been there helping your son and i dont even ask your husband to be there taking care of ur son cos i know your husband is not feeling well why oh why cant you feel abit appreciate please. I dont mind if matt mom dosent like me but i just hate it that she doesnt give matt what he wants. His an adult not a small boy. Please understand that, nevermind. One day i just hope her heart will be open to accept me. Okey, now you guys know why i just came back from phuket right. I just love this boy so much until i willing to do anything for him. I m gonna miss him so badly, wont get to meet him for days and months. Monthsry is coming soon and i have plan a nice things to do with him. Celebrating V day and Monthsry that just sweet but its okey. I really wish that he can be okey asap. Hais. Fuck i just cant stop crying while i m typing this is just too sad for me to face. I m just not ready for this but why laaa must all this happen now. Oh well, this is life tho. Okey this some pic i get to take at hospital only.

PS: Baby, get well soon. i need you badly everyday. No matter how hard this is i know your always here for me. Please do everything that i always ask you to do soo. I miss you every second and min. :'(

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Friday, January 23, 2015 ♥

♥ 1:40 PM

Happy Holiday Baby!

Hey blogger, i mean baby. Currently matt is at phuket with his friends for 5 day. Today is his 2nd day there. I really miss him and i really cry all out yesterday feeling soo worried. Once i got his text i was soo happy that his safe and sound. I know i have to be strong but without him i m weak knowing that i m too attached with him. I really wonder hows phuket there, heard alot of things that make me scared of him just being there alone. There is a reason why i dont trust my partner to go oversea with friends without me cos things really happen i kena that before. I really hope matt is being truthful with me while i m here worried and missing him. I just cant wait for Monday to fetch that handsome boy and hug him the whole night. Yeah, i m not going home we going to stay one night at a budget hotel. I wanna hear stories about phuket, every lil details. Okey , shall end here about matt and phuket. Eh wait, how rude i am right did not even wish all of u a new year. So HAPPY NEW YEAR READER. hahaha! 8 month have passed and almost 9 month coming, i m glad i m the girl that could last with matt and i m happy that his still staying. I m really thankful that he change a lil bit for me tho. His being sweet lately but sometime the same prob came in. And the funny part is that he thought i have feelings towards zack. Wonder who is zack? Zack is his ite friend, just because his malay, his handsome(okokla), he got bike and i always mention his name doesnt means i like him. No i dont, its just that i can click with him thats all. Okey pay is coming and i cant wait to buy matt something and aishah bday coming too. Another surprise for my babygirl. I really wish she come down. Today is friday and i have no idea what to do this weekend, it feel different without going out with matt and not watching him play soccer but its okey. I will find something, maybe go town meet aishah and chill alone at mbs where my fav day ever with him.
i will never forget that moment the moment we share alot of things and get crazy and you being so sweet and loving. okey now i miss that already. Haha! Alright then, i shall update again after he come back from phuket and share whats phuket like for him. And i better go now before boss come back from prayers.

PS: Matt, i cant wait for your present, hope you enjoy your holiday and stress free. I love you deep down from my heart. I see you on Monday boo. Much misses.

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shazirah hazzy ♥

♥ The Lover.

Sara hazirah
sara/shazirah is known to most people.
One year older on every October 17th!

A very sweet & shy girl who
is a CrazyLover with his babyboy ;Matthew Williams♥

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Entertainment ♥

♥ Music

Music here!

Adores ♥

♥ Loves

Girlfriends
is what she adores most.
They are her SuperGirlf.

Camwhoring
When she's out with her Supergirlfs or
when she has nothing to do at home.

Tootys & Buaybahs
are the beloved families of hers.

Beloved Darling
He's of course, who i love.
More sweetness for this please (:
Boyf, i love you

Yearns ♥

♥ i want

- GET MARRIED with him♥
- Gain weight!
- get my own car
- stay with Matthew Williams forever♥♥
- sweet photo of us tee! ♥
- More outings with Matthew Williams!
- go more overseas
- stop drinking/clubbing

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FH♥

Neesah[bestfriend ever]♥

Natasha[hawtstuff]♥

kecyk cantik♥

ifah keytot[adq angkat tersayang]♥

huda♥

sheerah[bestie]♥

LyJ LySya[girlfriend]♥

miraa[girlfriend]♥

shana[bf's sister]♥

Serenade[cousin]♥