Monday, September 28, 2015 ♥
Dear Blogger,
From the last post i was talking about me breaking up with matthew but we could not do it, i could not do it. I m too in love with him, yes again my mistake still keeping the one that hurts you when i myself knows that they could not make me happy no more. What can i do? I really need him, like how i use to need faris. So i dont know what am i suppose to do, i m trying my best to gain my trust towards him and see his changes to a better and wiser boyfriend. Its just sad that i could not see that no more, i m tired trying to work this relationship alone when i really need him to do his part too. Am i coupling to myself or to someone that is named matthew williams? He told me not to talk to guys but why are you talking to bunch of girls on your phone? Why is he being so unfair? Are you scared to lose me? How about me? I m not scared ? I m really am scared of someone much prettier and fun took you away and much better someone who your mom could even accept them. I m fucking scared to lose someone that is too close with me and that i fall so hard. Why cant this just stop and treat eachother the way we actually had tooo? I really dont know how long can i stay and love you? But deep down i know i will lose you and you will love other girls. Everything i say it just not working, i guess i had to leave you and you know what i am towards you? I guess so. Loving you really hurt sayang, it does. I dont feel like we are on this together no more. Hmm. I just want to be alone now. Shall stop here, good night.
Monday, September 7, 2015 ♥
This few weeks i feel theres changes btwn matthew and myself. We aint that close, he start scolding and shouting to me without any reason. I felt that he pushed me away and never love me no more. I did not know whats my wrong towards him. What stopped him by not loving me anymore. when time comes i been catching him with things that i dont even wanna happen. His been sneaking out late night without me knowing, going party with friends, girls. Having so much affair with other girls. which i realize i been played by a guy who i was proud to call my boyfriend. Never i felt great to have someone who could love me and not played me once but its all wrong. I start going out late and drinking with friends again right after i found out and saw all the pictures. I really have no idea how many girls he has. I did everything that i could, being part of this real relationship. I was serious again, falling hard like i did before but it just happen again and again and it hit so hard that i could not believe it and just hate him so much. I really had to fake it that i knew nothing about it. After hearing things from alot of people things got more clear and i really lose my mind. I really dont want to be in the situation that i was before after my break up with faris. I dont want to happen again. But i m just wondering why me? Why all this happen to me but not other person? I m tired of heartbreaking and crying. From the day we were together we promised eachother and i told him that i could not go through another heartache but then his promises was also a lie. One day if you read this maybe after our break up just so you know, i have been truely loved you since the day i saw your tagged and every text i got i was so happy. You make me feel love again but at the same time you keep breaking it more. Now things gonna go back to where i were last time but i will not to be the girl i was before i met you. You been the best relationship, i hope one day you learn to not cheat on girls and break their heart. Just the way you dont want those girl to do to you. I m gonna say i m sorry for letting you go, i dont want to be in this game your playing. I m gonna miss you so much as much you do. Dont feel shy if u see me outside and please say hi too me cos i need a hug from u if we meet up. Takecare sayang, may karma hit u back. Lastly, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MATTHEW WILLIAMS.
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