I just cant stop loving you boy.

Hey Dear, currently at moms place celebrate rakin's birthday i just get bored here and just want to blog cos there too many thing in my mind to post it before i forget. So i just got back from phuket yesterday, wondering why am i at phuket? when i last blog was matt and his friend was there.

Ya, let me tell you some sad story. It was sunday and counting down for his return on monday. planning what to do and all but in the end around 7 plus he texted me with a sad emoji. I got worried and i knew something not right. I got to know he broke his left leg, it make my heart break soo hard. I dont know what to do but i just cried soooo hard. I told mom to get me a flight to there but we could not get it,so i contacted his father and he could not get one too. Matt told me that his father going the next day so i texted his dad and told his dad i m going on the first flight to there, Once i reached phuket i rushed myself to the hospital got into his room he wasnt there so i waited and there he is laying down in pain. I cried once i see him, its just so sad. I went to him and give him a hug and cry more. It just hurt me so badly, i seat there looking at him, took care of him till the boys come in and his father reached. I was so happy and shy to meet his dad but everything went well. So night time came, baby was in pain when he sleeping. I could not have a good sleep, he keep waking me up and crying in pain. I was heartbroken seeing him like that, I wanted to cry but i just cant i just have to cry in my sleep and heart. The next day, he feeling much better. I m always there for him by his side, cuddling him, kissing him,helping him, get scolded by him. I do all this because i love him soo much that i cant let him be alone. I guess your wondering about my work, told boss that i took urgent leave but he wasn't happy. He just dont understand what i feeling. fuck it laa! Okey back to phuket, Matt's dad and ian  was so happy that matt have a such a sweet girlfriend and keep saying nice things toward me. Ofcos la i m shy, your partner parent say something nice about you sia. Haha. Okey it was the last day there i was sad cos i know once we in sg things will be different. Like now, oh well. Once we reach sgh Matt's mom is there she was so unhappy and never want to look at me in the face. I understand you dont like me but hey i been there helping your son and i dont even ask your husband to be there taking care of ur son cos i know your husband is not feeling well why oh why cant you feel abit appreciate please. I dont mind if matt mom dosent like me  but i just hate it that she doesnt give matt what he wants. His an adult not a small boy. Please understand that, nevermind. One day i just hope her heart will be open to accept me. Okey, now you guys know why i just came back from phuket right. I just love this boy so much until i willing to do anything for him. I m gonna miss him so badly, wont get to meet him for days and months. Monthsry is coming soon and i have plan a nice things to do with him. Celebrating V day and Monthsry that just sweet but its okey. I really wish that he can be okey asap. Hais. Fuck i just cant stop crying while i m typing this is just too sad for me to face. I m just not ready for this but why laaa must all this happen now. Oh well, this is life tho. Okey this some pic i get to take at hospital only. 

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